theres no use crying over spilt milk.

i don't know whats wrong with me.
im an emotional mess,
and a giant ball of stress.
im always moody,
and short tempered.
i need a change.

all of my life i have been horrible at making important decisions.
decisions that will affect my life scare the shit out of me.
the idea of applying to schools in a couple months makes me feel like im going to puke.
and i know drew wants to move.
i know he doesn't want to live in london, and would love to be in kitchener.
im scared to leave.
london is what i know .
but i feel trapped.
and i feel uninspired here
and i don't feel like i will be able to accomplish anything in a city that leaves me so un-enthused (sp?).

im rambling.
but i have to do it somewhere.

i need this

i need to be able to vent
and i need to be able to write.

i guess this is where thats going to happen.

oh, and keeping goolia updated because we don't get to talk as often as id like.

<3